Is December almost over?

Is this new year almost here?  I am ready to put this year in the past, just another year without our family.  You know this would not be an issue at all if Art and I had the attitude that if "it happens, it happens" or if we were like we do not want kids but were not.  Were ready, our lives are ready.  We are ready to have that Christmas morning, Christmas mass, Christmas with our families, Christmas caroling, visiting Santa, and Christmas crafts.  We are ready for New Years Eve at home playing Wii and going sledding.  We are ready to curl up on the couch at night with our kids watching movies while it is snowing.  We are ready!
I come up with every idea in the book to do something else.  I am going to volunteer more (check), I am going to bake more (check), I am going to spend time with family and friends (check), I am going to actually find a career (check), I am actually going to try a new business idea (check), so now what.  Everyone says enjoy your animals, I do, or enjoy your husband, I do, or enjoy family, I do, I want to do all of this with our kids.  Our friends and family (not their fault) either have kids and we do things with kids or non kid friends we go to the bar.  As much as I love going out to the bar I want to have "play dates" and "over nights".  I dwell on the fact that we do not have kids also in fear that I do not want anyone to think that we have stopped wanting kids. 
There is this lady I know that wants nothing more to retire but she can not so instead she works and works.  She works but at the same time talks about retiring and how others retire and live in lavish houses and so phenomenol things.  There is another person I know that all they want to do is go fishing and they talk about it all the time, have the gear to do it, and still never go but they talk about it.  No matter what it is if you want something you will talk about it and dwell on it.  I know my child(ren) are out there but the waiting is getting worse.