Busy is not Always Enough

Well it has been a couple days since I have blogged and I apologize. We had a little excitement in the adoption front, well we thought we did. Through a family member's friend's family (that's how it can happen, someone knows someone) there were 2 little boys being placed for adoption in Canada but as you can see it did not work out.
I compare the emotion to a woman finding out she's pregnant and then she miscarried. I know a little dramatic but think about it. The excitement of finding out your pregnant and seeing/hearing there is a possible child(ren) is the same high a woman can feel. You start feeling all these emotions and planning your little one's nursery/bedroom and future, lol. Pregnant women talk to their Doctors and adoptive parents are talking to their social worker and maybe the potential adoptee's social worker. Maternal instincts are kicking in, both pregnant and adoptive parents. As a pregnant woman's preparing her body an adoptive Mother is getting paperwork prepared, Doctors lined up, house preparations (kid ready), legal paperwork, and maybe planning a welcome home party. Neither a pregnant women or potential adoptive parent can see or feel the child but feels an instant connection then there is the miscarriage/loss of the child(ren).
So we have had our third loss, two different families.
We have been trying to stay busy with 4-H, football, animals, my career change, and possibly more school. Think that is enough to keep us busy? Still have quiet thinking time at night, even a few minutes.
So we keep praying, keep searching, keep communicating, and keep hoping that our angel(s) will find us and soon. I want to feel the excitement of knowing our angel(s) are coming home and for real to stay. I want to share the news and talk about our angel(s) coming home to everyone. So we continue the roller coaster of emotions; happiness, sadness, and anxiety.