Reactions from the blog

So why did I start a blog, was it for others or was it for me.  In the short it is for me but the more I am talking to readers the more I see they are enjoying my posts.  I really enjoy the fact that there are followers and that people are sharing the blog to others, it will only spread the word and hopefully bring "our angel" home quicker.  I really appreciate all the readers and hope to only keep spreading the word and hopefully, sooner then later, have news of a little one coming home soon.
More and more people I know are getting pregnant, married less time then us and getting pregnant already, and some are on their second child and planning for their third already.  I am not saying that this is not great, I am just stating the obvious.  I swear just when I am going good and going on with my business/life it's like bam there is another pregnancy, yes I am whining right now.  I am whining because I am pissed, "oh we didn't plan it" or "we will just wing after the baby is here".  I mean come on, who really thinks this is fair?  It's not fair but neither is life, right?  I know this has happened for a reason to Art and I but it doesn't make it any easier.  At least if we were rich we could shop and travel to drowned our sorrows but nope can not even have that luxury.  This is definitely a downer blog and I don't know why I am not as depressed as I usually am but I just want to know why.  I want to know why we/Art is being punished.  I can understand me, I have not been/am no angel but Art, he is amazing.  He is the most hardworking, patient, compassionate, funny, loving man I know.  He truly will be the best Father a child could ever have and that is something no one can deny.  God I really love my husband and wish this was so much easier.
 So as I am writing this blog and getting a little more upset/sad a coworker saw my book and we chatted about adoption.  She adopted both her children, she was on the list for 8 years.  She went further to say she knew the exact day that her first adopted child was conceived.  Is it crazy or a Mother's intuition?  We talked about the wait and friends getting pregnant and she said something I will never forget.  As our friends are having children now and as we wait think of the younger friends we will have because we will have our children later then our friends now, she said it sure keeps you young......oh Pat you are too funny!