Whoa where have I been?

I crack myself up sometimes with puns, look at my title for example. We have been super busy, productive, and silly this past week. Art and I went away for a night (hard to do with roughly 35 animals), Art's team won their game Saturday, Art and his Dad played in the dirt, I cleaned the house top to bottom, visited Matt & Katie's new family member (Myles), we had visitors, and 4-H livestock meeting. My phenomenal husband and father-in-law installed underground (5ft) water from the house to the front garden, in the barn, over the horse trough, and also to the back garden/pig pen. Those two together are such a great team. I mean by day Art works a 8-5 job, coaches youth football after work, has built me a horse barn, horse fence, ran water, built a pond, put up God only knows how much fencing, fixed vehicles, and laid flooring. He is my Superman and of course my prince charming. Building, repairing, and volunteering are his mode of occupied thoughts.
The busy weeks make it easier and not think so much about adoption, I never forget but busy equals occupied thoughts. So what are my other modes of occupied thoughts. I would believe my animals occupy me, 4-H occupies me, family time (Dad, Mom, brothers), work, my little sister from Big Brother/Big Sister, and recently reading (not when I am reading books on adoption). Hopefully once I take Bell (our eldest dog) to the veterinarian to be cleared health wise that will also be another mode of occupied thoughts. Even with all of these modes of occupied thoughts there are always little reminders or like last week a big reminder. Holding our friends new baby boy, it took everything I had to hold back the tears in front of them. He is amazing, beautiful, and perfect. He is everything I want in a child and more. The looks on his proud parents faces were priceless, I want to be that happy. I wanted to just scream in that room, "why? why me? why is this happening to my Superman/prince charming and I? Why can't we have this?". I really thought I would have a child(ren) by now, by the time I had gray hair and chin hair. I thought that children brought gray hair not wanting/stressing about having children. Even though I had adoption in my life plan I did not see it taking very long. For some reason I thought we were going to be that couple that through the average wait time off because we would receive our little won quickly, I know 6 months is still not that long but I really thought it would have already taken place.